Monday, February 18, 2013
Back to Work Anxiety
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In exciting news...Cole is going to be a year old in 3 more weeks...which means that I will be returning to work in 3 more weeks. His first birthday is bittersweet. I'm so excited to throw his party and celebrate with all of our family and friends, but I am really anxious about going back to work and leaving him. I have spent the last 11 months and some odd days not even thinking about work, just enjoying my time off on mat. leave. Now the time has come to start prepping for the big return and to be completely honest...it is overwhelming. I KNOW that everything is going to just fine. It will be nice to be back at work, to have adult interaction on a daily basis. It is just hard....hard to think about not spending everyday with my little man, hard to think about being away from him for 8+ hours a day, hard to think about someone else teaching him things. I get that I am lucky to have had the last year off work...believe me, it is not something I have taken for granted...I can't imagine having to return to work when my little one is only a few weeks old...but that being said, it still won't be easy.
Sometimes, when I think about it, I just want to cry. I haven't talked to Mike about my anxiety because I feel like he will just think it is silly...and it kind of is. I guess in the reality of it all...another maternity leave is just around the corner, as we plan to start TTC #2 later this year. There will be another year off with Little Man and baby #2 when that day comes...and if all works out I may become a somewhat stay-at-home mom after the second baby....well open up a home daycare, which will allow me to be home with our children while looking after a few others as well.
Well....I guess I am done my little pity party! I'm glad I got to get that out :)